Hey guys,
This time I am directly going to jump to the tipsy talk. I hope you people don’t mind its a bit long, hope you stick through.
This last 2 weeks have been dreadful for me. My birthday somehow became the day I was dreading. It wasn’t because I am turning older.
Every year I work very hard. Let be college or project or my training I always give my 100%. I almost turn into this workaholic person. So my birthday becomes a sort of reward, a treat to myself, pamper myself and it celebrate it grandly.

Last year after I finished my training by the end of December my thoughts were “Ok 1 month I will rest, travel and by February get a job”. After going through multiple interviews and being rejected for getting a designing degree first or for being overweight or being a girl in guys field or not having enough credentials. That really got to my head. Then deciding to loose weight and going on liquid diet which just made me miserable and I didn’t loose any weight either. Then I started this blog to share my talent and my thoughts.

But in my head that didn’t feel enough. I am so used to doing alot of work daily just to gain so little or loose few nights sleep just to get the work done or skipping lunch/dinner so I could my work does not get interrupted.
I ruined my body so that my work didn’t suffer. I am so used to working so hard that actually doing cooking what I feel like, experimenting new dishes as I want to or writing them up when I can feels so easy and relaxing that my brain does not consider it my work. It made me hate myself in a way.

A week ago my best friend Anvi Vaidya texted me asking what’s going on, she was a little worried that i am not texting or more like badgering her. Every year before my birthday I text her constantly asking what is she planning or what is she giving me then trying to guess it. I never got it right but it kinda became our ritual. She was a little worried y I am not doing it this year
I said “I don’t feel like i deserve my birthday or its celebration”.
She said “It could just be because you are getting older but that does not mean you don’t deserve it. Everyone deserves their birthday.”
While that did not make me feel much better it made sense so to sort myself out I saw that one movie that instantly made me feel better Dear Zindagi.
The movie has so many meaning messages on life and on relationships, few I am sharing here. I highly recommend everyone to watch this movie.

Its about a girl who has a troubled past which is now affecting her every day life, relationships and her job and how it makes her feel that its her fault or it is because of people who are going to judge her for the person she is and how she gets over it

Please check this movie out, if you have seen it then watch it in a new light. This movie will give you a fresh perspective on how to see yourself and your life.
Hope something about this inspired you in some way or other. You don’t need to let your body and mind go through stress, anxiety or depression just because you think that’s what you have to do so you can reach a particular goal.
I ask you why? will it make so much of a difference if you choose a easy way stayed healthy and still reached your goal. Why do we feel that to reach somewhere we have to give up everything? And what is it worth in the end when we are so broken to even appreciate it?
Just ask yourself this may be you might know the answer for yourself.

Life is like a Jigsaw puzzle,
People around you can help you find the missing pieces,
But its you who has to finish the game….