The other day I was reading a book and it got me to thinking how much we ignore ourselves and our own feelings.
Like take a close person in your life for example. We know them very well (obviously, that’s why we are close). Even a little difference in their voice and we are alerted and grill them to know if they are ok or if they have a problem in their life we support, we help find solutions and not just one solution (that’s crazy), we find multiple solutions (what if this does not work). And obviously we will help them go through the given solution, check up on them everyday checking how they are holding up (is it just me or do we all do that).

But when it comes to us we tend to downsize our problems so much. Like :
I am not stressed/anxious I am just a little worried, no big deal….. I just need space.
No I am not depressed I am just a little upset, I will get over it in a day or two…. leave me alone.
WHAT I DON’T HAVE ANGER ISSUES I am just a little irritated/annoyed…. fuck off!
I don’t have eating disorder I am just dieting…back off!
No I am not suffering inside I am just quite person….. I am fine.
I am not an alcoholic I just like to dink a bit once a while… so what if i get drunk or black out, it happens sometimes… won’t happen next time.
There are so many more examples.
We all do it and then suddenly when you reach the point of drowning, you suddenly realize “I am not ok”. But now you also think you are beyond saving so you just survive as best you can.

Its ok to say to yourself 
I am not fine,
Honey that’s where the
HEALING starts.

We are so busy in our lives first school then college then internship then working. With that you want social life, some time to may be travel, hopefully some time to do a bit of workout, dating is important too so some time for that, May be some time to meet up with family. In all of this we forget we exist. Yes you are doing this for yourself but are you really doing it for yourself or are you doing it because everyone does it or it is what is expected of you at this age.

I am not saying announce it to the world that you are not fine but you can at least admit it to yourself that yes something is not right, yes I am lonely, yes I am depressed or yes I am stressed.
I know honey, it’s not that easy letting that control you have over yourself by saying you are fine go….I know it very well…. But the control you will have after admitting will be so much more. You will know what you need to do to make yourself feel better. You will know how to help yourself. Not immediately but gradually.

There could be a lot of people around you
holding that life jacket you need,
but its only you who has keep on swimming up 
and keep yourself from drowning…..